Girlfriends

For N and S,  This letter is for all those times I couldn’t vocally express how much I fucking love you ladies and how much you mean to me and how much my life would absolutely suck whale cock if you weren’t in it. Thank you. Thank you for the hugs when I was breaking…

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Solace

I’m trembling. He holds me in his arms. I’m shaking, my mind is exploding with emotions I cannot contain. I’m a mess, a broken mess but right now in his arms I’m starting to feel safe again. Please don’t let go. There is nowhere else I’d rather be. Suddenly it doesn’t matter how my past…

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Vow

You close your eyes and look away. You’re fighting back tears and it absolutely crushes me. It breaks my heart, you have a past so troubled. And it breaks my heart because you, my love, you deserved none of it. A single tear rolls down. No love, hush, you’re okay now. You’re in my arms…

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Rains

Monsoon is here and there’s nothing I’d rather do than curl up underneath the softest soybean quilt I can find, make myself a cup of hot cocoa and watch reruns of Sex and the City.   I’ve never been a fan of the rains. I can’t stand getting wet in it. And I never could…

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Happy Birthday, Joy   And when we meet, hold me tight and close like you’ll never let go. And I’ll melt in the warmth of your embrace. You’re my safe haven. And when we meet, look deep into my eyes; they say I’m hard to read but I’ll tell you a secret, my eyes can’t…

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Mi Amor,

Before you open your heart to me, remember this. I’ve my terrible days. Days when I cannot get out of the bed because the weight of a past that I fight to let go of brings me down and leaves me frozen, a million painful memories replay in my brain. I’ve far too many insecurities,…

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Pep Talk

The past does not matter. It does not matter how much you’ve fucked shit up, how many people you’ve hurt, how many people hurt you, how many regrets you have. Today is a new day. Today you could make amends. Today you move on. Today is a chance. Use it wisely. If there’s someone you’ve…

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23328000 seconds of you

Mi Amor, Four months into being us, one cloudy Sunday morning I woke up to you, wrapped in your arms and I realized that I was completely, utterly and unconditionally in love with you. The breeze was cool, the sky was downcast and it was quiet all around, and for the first time in my…

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Regret, pretty boy

Somedays, I am filled with uncontrollable rage. Words pour, trying their hardest to escape my seething mind’s piercing clutch but they cannot. My head pounds, ink bleeds and spills over fresh white crisp paper. You’ve taken her loyalty for granted. You use her, lie to her, tell her she’s the only one in your life.…

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Smushball

Hey. For my sake and for the sake of our relationship, I hope you are someone who reads. The words I type have always conveyed my feelings better than anything else. I think about you often, mostly because I’m terrified you aren’t real or I will never find you. You are the man I will…

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